I finally got a "My Little Pony" which I have always been dreaming about since I was young. Her name is Rainbow Swirl, which I named Rain for short. She is so pretty! Love her so much! Leon gave her to me maybe as a 15th month anni present. Hehehe.....

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I finally started my own research this week. Managed to get a few pots of the plant which I'm studying at a nursery. Lucky. Eversince lab started, I have been going to school super early and going home late. So super damn tired everyday. This is only the beginning and I'm already so tired. Don't know how to survive through the rest of my graduate life. So, today, since i have a meeting at 3pm, I not going to do anything concrete today. Just simple experiments and do more of reading up. Tomorrow then do the rest of the long experiments. Haha...

Going to Bintan this Sat with Leon, much to the disapproval of my family. But I just went ahead. I always tot that my family are quite modern in their thinking, but now i think they are not. It's really dampen the spirits when u are going for holiday w/o family support. I do hear some remarks which i find a bit insulting from them. But I know they are protective of me..So i didnt argue back or wat. Maybe in future when I have a daughter, I would do the same too.

When young, I always have a dream of my family coexisting happily with my husband. But from the way things are now, I dun think this will happen. Firstly, language barrier is one factor and attitude is another factor. My family used to like leon in the past, until he did someting incorrect. Till now, I also dunno how to save the relationship. Sometimes, feel so stuck between them. Like a sandwich in between. Can feel very tiring at times. haiz....y cant they all just tok happily and have fun together even w/o me present? Or am I asking for too much?

Recently, I started to think that leon has a bad temper. Sometimes, he will pull a long face w/o me knowing why and wouldnt even tell me when i asked him. It can be very irritating at times. SO most of the times, I just choose to ignore him. I cannot imagine my life like this in the future. Things are going to get worse when we stay together after marriage. I know he loves me but if this is the treatment I going to get, then i rather he don't love me. Maybe this is the stage in a relationship when tings are getting ugly. If we can survive through this, we can conquer everyting in the future. I attended a course in the past when this stage is called the normalization stage if i remembered correctly. This stage is inevitable in all kinds of relationships. If can pull thrug this, then we are ready for marriage. :-)

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