Going to Bintan this Sat with Leon, much to the disapproval of my family. But I just went ahead. I always tot that my family are quite modern in their thinking, but now i think they are not. It's really dampen the spirits when u are going for holiday w/o family support. I do hear some remarks which i find a bit insulting from them. But I know they are protective of me..So i didnt argue back or wat. Maybe in future when I have a daughter, I would do the same too.
When young, I always have a dream of my family coexisting happily with my husband. But from the way things are now, I dun think this will happen. Firstly, language barrier is one factor and attitude is another factor. My family used to like leon in the past, until he did someting incorrect. Till now, I also dunno how to save the relationship. Sometimes, feel so stuck between them. Like a sandwich in between. Can feel very tiring at times. haiz....y cant they all just tok happily and have fun together even w/o me present? Or am I asking for too much?
Recently, I started to think that leon has a bad temper. Sometimes, he will pull a long face w/o me knowing why and wouldnt even tell me when i asked him. It can be very irritating at times. SO most of the times, I just choose to ignore him. I cannot imagine my life like this in the future. Things are going to get worse when we stay together after marriage. I know he loves me but if this is the treatment I going to get, then i rather he don't love me. Maybe this is the stage in a relationship when tings are getting ugly. If we can survive through this, we can conquer everyting in the future. I attended a course in the past when this stage is called the normalization stage if i remembered correctly. This stage is inevitable in all kinds of relationships. If can pull thrug this, then we are ready for marriage. :-)
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