School has started for me. Initially, I kept asking myself whether or not I have made the right choice in returning back to NUS for a postgrad studies. For one thing, I have lesser time for Leon and my dear piano. My family are supportive of me in whatever choice I have made since I have already gotten the basic degree which is enough to get a good job with a reasonable pay, but not good enough to get me into the org i want to join. Thus, I made the choice to leave my job and back to Uni, hoping to get a higher degree and apply for my dream org again after grad. This choice has a high price to pay. Not much personal time, not much time for sleeping,shopping, playing blah blah blah. Sometimes can get very discouraging also when my research did not work well or most of the lecture materials I don't understand or totally clueless. A lot of catching up to do since I have stopped studying for 4 years. So super stressful and worrying! Think I have become super kaisu after back to school!!
My supervisor of my research project so far seems nice. She is very encouraging and understand that I have absolutely no pharmcy background since I was from Chemistry major. So she does helps me out here and there but how long can I depend on her? Can't go knocking on her door for everything I don't know or not sure of! Have to depend on myself. Read more, study hard, be consistend, have a positive attitude, never say die attitude!! hahaha.....
Leon and I have deicided to meet up on fri and sat of each week, leaving the other days for me to study or wat. I know it's a bad thing cos there is always a risk of us drifting further and further apart since we spend lesser time together now. I leave it all to fate. Don;t seem to be anything much I can do. Hiaz......
Me now in my research lab typing all these....very discouraged today cos the stupid GC-MS machine is contaminated causing inaccuacy in my results!! waste my 2 days of hard work preparing the samples.Now need to wait for one night of flushing the system before I can run my samples again. I shall make good use of the free time to study for the totally clueless lecture which i have attended on Tuesday.
This morning came ot my lab and saw my things missing. Suspected Muthu, a research assistant in my lab, asked him and he said no. I really don't believe him!! SHIT!!
Btw, today is Leon and mine 11 mth anniversary!! yayy!!!! so fast!! 11 mth liao!!! hope we will have many more years to come!! :-)Wish us all the best!
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